possibly way TMI

[piranha]

so, as previously mentioned, my inner gay boy has discovered his sex drive. i wasn't complaining at first, but you know? this is ridiculous. i am too old to have the sex drive of a teenager. i have actually been perfectly happy without a sex drive, i didn't miss the spurious one i had in the past. life is good without a sex drive. i really don't like being driven, and most certainly not by my hormones, so when all that went away, i was mostly relieved. yeah, i'd question it once in a while, to make sure i wasn't suppressing something important. but i figured i wasn't, and things were fine.

if this is what normal people go through, i feel for them. how in the world does one get anything done?

i guess i can consider myself lucky that my inner gay boy lusts after japanese voice actors; it's not like we can get into a lot of trouble that way.

(changed the userpic so eiri yuki from gravitation gets to express how i feel about my inner gay boy right now. *heh*.)

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[pir-anha.livejournal.com]

i guess having a short attention span is really helpful for some things after all! *chuckle*.

yeah, on the want -> need scale this sure doesn't feel like a want to me either, and i most definitely don't actually want it. i'll try and remain amused by it for now because it just makes no sense to get upset over it. and mostly i'll hope it subsides, like most of my unusual spurts of something or other. i should probably try and enjoy it instead; that might in fact make it go away quicker.

it's interesting that you think it didn't use to be that bad when you were of the age where sex seems pretty naturally to be high on most people's minds. i also don't remember ever feeling something even close to this -- but i was pretty screwed up about sex as a young adult. since then my strongest sexual feelings have occurred when i was particularly interested in somebody new, but it never was this consuming then either. and i am not actually interested in somebody new -- at least i strongly presume i am not actually having a mental hard-on for several japanese voice actors whom i don't even know.

though... hm. i did once before get really attracted to somebody by voice alone (i heard CEA in the hallways before i ever met him, and man, to this day i've not forgotten his voice).