mild envy

[piranha]

i hope all of y'all who're going will have fun at wiscon!

Comments

[wordweaverlynn.livejournal.com]

We'll miss you.

[bcholmes.livejournal.com]

yay! yay! yay!

[wild-irises.livejournal.com]

I doubt that it's your kind of thing, but I still am hoping for a chance to meet you someday.

[blur01.livejournal.com]

Would lots of pictures from the con make you happy?

(not that I get to go either, but I could beg all the people I know who will be there to post em for you to look at)

wiscon

[pir-anha.livejournal.com]

*little wry grin*. thanks, but no need to beg anyone on my account. it's complicated, and pictures of people don't do anything to tap into it.

- i dislike and distrust, with some primal component, large gatherings of people. this all in itself is more complicated than that sounds. the primal component is fear, and not even completely irrational fear.

- i like meeting people i've gotten to know via the net in person -- in small doses, 1 or at most 2 at a time, so i can concentrate on them.

- intellectually i like the idea of a con like wiscon a lot.

- i'm unlikely to go to a large gathering where i know lots of people via the net but not in person, because that would be overload stimulation, and it turns me into a pumpkin. i tried it a couple years ago at farthing party, and it was very much too much, even for a small, all-around wonderful con where my host did magically everything right to make me comfortable. i simultaneously had a great time and it ate me alive. it took me months to recover.

- i don't have the energy for it anymore, and i would not be present as myself even if i manaqed to convince myself to go.

but every year i consider it wistfully, and am at the same time happy for those who can go, and a little envious that i can't. :)