struggling

[piranha]

am still not making clear headway as to whether i should stay on the abuse team. i am finding that i've gone from really enjoying the IRC channel and its helpfulness as well as its banter to no longer feeling comfortable there because i no longer trust what is said there will stay there (after hearing during the big blowup that at least one person carries stuff back to brad). not like i actually say anything that would be objectionable; i am rather less snarky than normal when in a volunteer job like this. but the fact of this happening bothers me a lot. i mean, it wouldn't bother me if brad hung out there himself, and i'd gladly say anything to his face, in fact, but selective stuff from people who are venting taken out of context and presented who-knows-how (but obviously negatively), that really rubs me the wrong way.

the problem is that some work is really hard to do without access to IRC, and so i start slacking. i haven't felt like getting back on this whole last week. part of that is that i always need recovery after spending so much time being social at VCON, but the underlying negative feelings seem harder to overcome than i anticipated.

*sigh*. well, it's a new week. maybe i can find a way to use the bot that aids the work outside of that channel.

Comments

[crantz.livejournal.com]

I'd personally just take a break for a bit and find something to do that is found personally zenful. And then try it again when you're in a good happy calm mood and see if it's still bad.

Bearing in mind I am random!guy from flist whose former advice to people has included 'get really drunk and watch bad science fiction shows' in regards to studying for exams.

[missakins.livejournal.com]

you can msg all the bots.

This is a subset of why I quit.

[azarias.livejournal.com]

Eh. Fuck Brad, and informants, too. What are they going to do, fire us?