renaissance poisson

I feel almost exactly as you describe here. I don't, however, really have much desire to banish my squick. As long as we're being respectful of people, I think that's okay.

(I do have a thing where if I'm really aroused, it becomes a bit harder to hurt me, but that's different -- I still don't like it when the sensation passes over into pain. That's why I joke that my safeword is "ouch".)