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the calm after the storm
Sep. 20th, 2006 11:45ah, silence.
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papersky and rysmiel went off to do important things, zorinth is in school (though plotting to not have that happen again), and i'm alone, really alone for the first time in what seems like forever. earlier jo and i were talking about the difference in having people around (even if they're very well behaved and do not just walk in and interrupt one's work), and being truly alone, and yes, it is indeed a palpable difference. it feels so ... free, even if i am able to do the very same things as i would do with others around.
that said, i am not in fact heartily sick of people, but am enjoying myself. especially now that the company has shrunk to the household, but really, overall it's been a good thing -- in the category of "time spent with 40-50 people" this small con ranks in the top enjoyable times i've had with that many of you all in one place. :) i was fortunate in that the long bus trip was nowhere as horrible as i had anticipated and girded myself for, and so i arrived with extra energy; and not all of that was immediately used up, though i could pretty much watch it drain away. it really is very annoying to be able to spend 82 hours in the company of total strangers and have that be less stressful than 10 hours in the company of people i know and like. bloody introversion/depression, at times it really pisses me off.
not only has it been outstanding in the category of time spent with groups of people, but it's also been outstanding in the category of cons. ok, so that is a tiny category, since i've been to 3 cons -- a baycon, a VCON, and this. but if all cons were like farthingparty, i'd be going to lots more of them; the programming and quality of the panels were excellent, and i only have one complaint: too little time for some subjects. i went to almost all panels, and the 2.5 i missed, i missed only for personal logistics reasons. i'll be writing a separate post about the panels that i enjoyed most, and while they were not all created equal, there wasn't a single boring one.
the people who've participated were to a person interesting in manifoldly colourful and intricate ways, and i felt only occasionally like a totally alien outcast (to put it in perspective, i felt like a totally alien outcast 95% of VCON and 90% of baycon). i actually tried to go out for meals in larger groups a few times (8+ people), and it went alright; i didn't do too much turtling. the rest of the time i spent with just one or two people, which was a lot more conducive to actually having some personal connection that went beneath the surface. as always, i am struck by how much more suited asynchronous communication is to my personality (and i am not even at the far end of inability to get a word in edgewise in the company of extraverts).
the small fly in the ointment was that neither piglet nor lorre made it, and i would have loved to see them again; it's been too long. but in reality of course there wasn't even a right time to talk to people i wanted to talk to who were there (looks especially at cally,hobbitbabe and ckd (whose identity i didn't figure out until way late)), so what the heck am i whining about, *snrk*.
*whew*. i just spent two hours cutting my email down to size, and replying only to the most urgent. i'm afraid i will not be able to catch up even remotely on my flist.
papersky and rysmiel went off to do important things, zorinth is in school (though plotting to not have that happen again), and i'm alone, really alone for the first time in what seems like forever. earlier jo and i were talking about the difference in having people around (even if they're very well behaved and do not just walk in and interrupt one's work), and being truly alone, and yes, it is indeed a palpable difference. it feels so ... free, even if i am able to do the very same things as i would do with others around.that said, i am not in fact heartily sick of people, but am enjoying myself. especially now that the company has shrunk to the household, but really, overall it's been a good thing -- in the category of "time spent with 40-50 people" this small con ranks in the top enjoyable times i've had with that many of you all in one place. :) i was fortunate in that the long bus trip was nowhere as horrible as i had anticipated and girded myself for, and so i arrived with extra energy; and not all of that was immediately used up, though i could pretty much watch it drain away. it really is very annoying to be able to spend 82 hours in the company of total strangers and have that be less stressful than 10 hours in the company of people i know and like. bloody introversion/depression, at times it really pisses me off.
not only has it been outstanding in the category of time spent with groups of people, but it's also been outstanding in the category of cons. ok, so that is a tiny category, since i've been to 3 cons -- a baycon, a VCON, and this. but if all cons were like farthingparty, i'd be going to lots more of them; the programming and quality of the panels were excellent, and i only have one complaint: too little time for some subjects. i went to almost all panels, and the 2.5 i missed, i missed only for personal logistics reasons. i'll be writing a separate post about the panels that i enjoyed most, and while they were not all created equal, there wasn't a single boring one.
the people who've participated were to a person interesting in manifoldly colourful and intricate ways, and i felt only occasionally like a totally alien outcast (to put it in perspective, i felt like a totally alien outcast 95% of VCON and 90% of baycon). i actually tried to go out for meals in larger groups a few times (8+ people), and it went alright; i didn't do too much turtling. the rest of the time i spent with just one or two people, which was a lot more conducive to actually having some personal connection that went beneath the surface. as always, i am struck by how much more suited asynchronous communication is to my personality (and i am not even at the far end of inability to get a word in edgewise in the company of extraverts).
the small fly in the ointment was that neither piglet nor lorre made it, and i would have loved to see them again; it's been too long. but in reality of course there wasn't even a right time to talk to people i wanted to talk to who were there (looks especially at cally,
hobbitbabe and ckd (whose identity i didn't figure out until way late)), so what the heck am i whining about, *snrk*.*whew*. i just spent two hours cutting my email down to size, and replying only to the most urgent. i'm afraid i will not be able to catch up even remotely on my flist.