renaissance poisson

it's good that you can do that.

i have very complicated feelings about christianity, and can't just take some of the trappings and continue to use them. the symbolism is quite engrained, and it feels like i would be committing a disrespectful act by putting up, frex, an advent wreath -- i am most definitely not anticipating christ's birthday, and the candles no longer mean what they are supposed to mean.

it's just too difficult to disentangle. and christmas mass; *shudder*. never, ever again. it would be so very wrong. i feel very much out of place in any church, at any time. too bad; i love to sing, and oddly enough singing hymn doesn't feel wrong (probably because i ignore lyrics as a matter of course). singing the messiah would be glorious. but not in a church.

i can do evergreens and candles, and i do. but those trappings are not all there was to the feelings, and i miss the whole thing.

*laugh*. previewing -- i see livejournal has just this very moment changed its banner for the holidays.