renaissance poisson

I do get the endorphin "high" when I exercise hard. I also get it after piercings or pain play. Now that I think about it, if I get it after accidentally injuring myself I don't notice it. But I do tend to have an extremely high pain threshold, so it's entirely possible it's there and just busy preventing me from feeling the negative effects.

Most of my limited play has been around that pain threshold. It also has huge trust component for me - being able to trust my partner is strongly erotic for me.

I have interest in the physical aspects but not really in power play. I don't want a slave and definitely don't want to be somebody else's. (I do enough shit around here as it is, thanks.) Humiliation is right out. Slapping my face gets an instant kill response.

I'm also an abuse and sexual assault survivor, so I don't know if that figures in at all.